pencarian sunscreen #curhat

 hellooo! lagi-lagi masih di bulan ramadhan di tahun 2021, sekarang jam 5.24 udah beli takjil, udah pulang kerja, udah dirumah ya kembali lagi dengan saya yang mau cerita random hahaha.

 

gw mau curhat ttg kelanjutan kisah per skincare-an. ini tentang sunscreen... hhhh. jd skg gw udh 4x ganti sunscreen huhuhu. memang jenis kulit gw ni kulit sensitif ya, jgn kan wajah, tangan badan itu sensitif banget. pernah ni ya maaf kalo rada lebay, tp pernah gw makan  di kondangan, trus pulangnya wajah nya merah-merah alergi gituuu.. pdhl org2 lain engga loh. coba, hal apa yg membuat alergi coba? apakah krn dia kurang bersih atau motong2nya gimana? trus kalo makan diluar kan was was hahaha. pdhl itu bkn makan seafood atau apa yaa, itu makan biasa aja sop sop gitu wkwk. trus kalo tangan ni pernah gw cukup lama telapak tangan nya alergi. krn mgkn keseringanpake hand sanitizer...atau hand sanitizer yg dipake ya gacocok gitu jd gatel2 dan merah2, pdhl air aja kan alkohol ya dan bisa dibilang bukan "neutral" sehingga kena air tu sakittt.. padahal coba? apa? air kan kebutuhan yaa.. trus tiap pake sabun gw cuma bisa pake oilum, selain itu misal shampoan aja hbs itu gatel. telapak tangan loh. kan greget ya hahaha. oke lanjut ke kisah utama yaitu sunscreen. jadi giniii.. gw pertama, pake sunscreen biore aqua rich. tampilannya seperti ini:

dipake, kok ya malah jadi kusam muka tuhh.. dan bener klo gapake dan pake ya bedanya itu, malah muka jd kusaam.. padahal dulu cocok waktu umroh tu pake sunscreen itu dan aman-aman ajaa hmmm. trus sebelum balik ke serui, gw beli lah sunscreen jafra yg seperti ini:

kok ya jd jerawatt huhu. awalnya cocok dan aman, pas sampe di papua malah lgsg jd jerawat banget dan bener2 klo gapake, kan dibenerin dulu sama mylove skin1004 centella asiatica.. begitu udah "bener" ilang jerawat2, pas pake sunscreen lagi, jerawat lagii hahaa. jd emang bener kan grgr dia.. yaudahlah gw gapake. tp suatu hari kan ya gimana ya, gabisa gapunya sunscreen tuh.. krn klo misal hari sabtu, ngajar, itu panas dan harus pake sunscreen gitulho nanti kulit nya rusak yakan hmm. tp nanti jerawat jd bingung. yasudahlah gw beli akhirnya sunscreen cetaphyl. seperti ini:

ini harga nya mahal bgttt dibanding yg 2 sebelumnya. jafra kyknya 159, klo biore 120. itupun bagio aku mahal ya dan sayang krn kan ternyata ga cocok. trus yg cetaphyl ini harganya 270 huhu nangeees bgt gasih. gatau apa krn beli di serui ya.. di toko langganan aku hhaha. mba nya blg sih dia nyaranin l'oreal tp lg abis juga dan aku akhirnya yaudah beli aja. eh udh beli mahal2 gataunya sama ajaaa :"")) sama dgn jafra dia bikin aku jerawatan huhuhu. lagi lagi karena selain mahal,gw udh budgeting kan dan 270 tu udah habisin jatah beli sebulan lah, plus wkt itu jg lg beli modem wifi shg udh gaboleh beli lg sehingga gw pake2 aja dan yaah merelakan ada jerawat2 gitu haha. blm lg karena pake masker ya, masker ni emanggg sgt tdk friendly thd kulit. jd jerawatan hufff wkwk. aku ngakalin nya misal ngajar tu yaudah pake, tp sampe rumah lgsg buru2 hapus dan cuci dan skincare an alias pake skin1004 itu utk menenangkan. dan jdnya kl cm kekantor atau dirumah ya gapake hahaha. laluuu, skrg merupakan percobaan ke-4 ku. kebetulan sdh bulan yg baru ya, dan tbtb adekku nyaranin sunscreen nya skinaqua. aku inget dulu prnh nyoba dan efeknya dia jd buat kusam. nah rifa ni ngirimin bahwa ada varian nya sunscreen skin aqua yg whitening milk. kayak gini nih:

 

katanya ini cocok buat org yg ngerasa pake yg biasa tu kusam. dan itu jg utk kulit sensitif cocok. begitu kata seorang influencer tiktok yg adikku kirimkan kepadaku. hahaha. krn inget harga dia tu murah, ya dibawah 100rb lah.. jd aku memutuskan utk ke toko skincare langganan di serui. dan mencari inii. alhamdulillah adaa ketemu. tp spf nya cuma 20, tp ya gpp lah yg ptg uvA uvB yakhaan. pertama nyoba cuma pake di jidat sama hidung dan dagu. tp posisi skg emg lg jerawat gt di dagu huh jd gatau ya.. trus hr kedua pake di jidat sm pipi bagian atas(tulang pipi aja) dan alhamdulillah aman aman. jd hr ini yaitu td pagi, pake lah aku ke seluruh muka tp tipis2 aja. yaa sejauh ini alhamdulillah amaaan. besoknya nih hari sabtu, hari nya ngajar. aku harus bgt pake dan aku ya bismillah aja. sejauh ini ga jerawatan, dan ga kusam...sekilas aman. but update! hr ini hari senin tgl 26, dan sejak hari sabtu pulang ngajar yg lalu aku jd merasa kulit ku ga selembut biasanyaa huhu. gmn ya deskripsikan nya? biasa tu lembut, plump, enak gitu.. nah ini kurang mulus.. aku sendiri yg emg suka pegang wajah wakak tp biasa ga kyk gini.. jd ragu lg kan dan mundur lg.. googling tu bingung apa, dan kl secara looks tu engga biasa aja wkwk. tp aku sendiri sebagai pemilik muka yg merasa.. akhirnya gapake sunscreen nih 2 hari. btw, selain sunscreen aku jg blm lama ini ganti face wash dari cetaphyl for oily skin ke cetaphyl for all skintype. beda nya adalah cetaphyl oily tu bening, kl yg all skintype warnanya putih. bingung ga si omg jd krn apanih. sejauh ini br nyoba stop sunscreen tp masih. apa krn face wash nya? dan kl iya, knp sblm pake sunscreen aman2 aja? hhhh perskincare-an ini memangg melelahkan wkwkwk.

sejujurnya galau bgt kenapa kok saya ga cocok sm sunscreen2 gitu hahaha. bahkan trkhr nonton video di youtube nya dermatologist gt bahwa sunscreen tu penting. dan ya saya jg mau pake dok tp kenapa kok susah bgt nemu yg cocok. dia jg sebutin sih merk2 sunscreen tp ya dodolnya saya dia kan org luar negri ya, org amerika jd prodak2 nya ga mudah dicari disini. klo pun ada pas cek hrg nya, kecilbgt bisa 500rb hahahaha. weny kmrn nyaranin pake yg stick dia pake dr natrep. kulit dia jg sensitifff. tp bln ini udah beli skinaqua, markicob bulan depan wkwkwk. lelah sih coba2 gini, makanya dulu gw pake skincare dokterrrr, simple wkwk

missing home.

 

 random pics that as i saw this i can barely remember the feeling i got when i took them. it was home. peace. content. love. genuinely happy. it was home.

Everything has changed

 Hello blog! jd gw habis nyari2 blog-blog lama orang, terutama blog-blog yg sering gw baca2in pas smp. Inget banget jaman smp itu jaman nya semua orang di sekolah punya blog. ga semua sih, hampir semua hahaha. tp waktu itu jamanbgt blogger, blogspot. ya pokoknya socmed emg banyak bgt kan dulu tuh. nah wkt smp gw inget banget bahkan lg ke pagelaran (cianjur selatan) rumahnya buyut, itu malem2 semua org udah tidur gw masih baca2in blog aja wkwkkw. waktu itu inget bahkan hp gw masih sony erricson. waktu itu aktifitas online kita banyak banget deh, dan yg proaktif gitu loh(?) jd dulu mainan facebook, twitter, plurk, tumblr, blogger, dan bahkan camera2 online gitu dgn efek2nya yg lucu2, lupa namanya. intinya mainan jaman dulu gw merasa lebih proaktif(?) wkwk klo sekarang kita lebih sering consuming, nonton youtube, netflix, hulu, disney hotstar... nonton kan sambil diem ya. tapi tapi!! ga semua juga dengg, nonton kan bisa sambil kerja, sambil makan gitu wkwk. tp yaa beda aja sm jaman dulu 2009-2010 yg proaktif hahaha. gw aja sih ngerasanya gitu. oya balik lg ke blogspot2 orang.. gw bener2 nyari blog orang2 dan cuma bisa nemu sedikit. kebanyakan udah dihapusss. memang jaman sekarang penting menghapus jejak alay hahaha. terus, ada nih yg gw temuin blog nya masih ada masih di update.. tapi postingannya berubah :") ya ofkors lah ya kan udah tua juga jadi beda pasti, tapi terasanya dulu lebih raw dan seru lepas aja gitu cerita, kok kalo skg blog tadi itu dia lebih serius-serius gitu post nya, puitis, dan gimana ya kurang mendalam.. trus 1 lagi nih blog yg gw nemu, adalah blog temen smp gw tapi dulu gapernah baca banget jadi kemaren bbaca2in dan bener2 dia tu tulisan gajelas loh padahal ya kyk brain dump aja gituu tapi seru aja jd nostalgia jaman smp hahahaha.tapi blog nya  kyk gapernah dibuka lagi sejak tahun 2010 apa 2011, begitu gw nyari skrg orang nyaa di ig hahah krn blog nya menghibur bgt kocak, eh ternyata di protect dan ga di accept2 sodara2. emang sih jauh bgt pisah jalannya dan ya ga deket juga kenal2 aja dulu tuh (temen bkn tuh?) wkwk. jd i understand, i fully respect kalo dia cuma mau accept org yg dia kenal (krn gw jg gt wkkw) tapi gw jd melihat aja perbedaan dulu dan sekarang dan bisa menyimpulkan bahwa everything has changed eaaa. karena td gw crt ttg orang, tp gw juga sama seperti itu! misal nya jaman dulu brain dump aja slow gitu kan, skg gw dikit2 close firend kl ngepost di ig wkwk. walaupun cuma merepost post org ke story, atau ngetawain apa itu sering di closefriend aja wkwk. bisa dibilang jaga image tp sebenarnya adalah karena lebih nyaman aja menjadi diri sendiri ke orang2 terpilih ini. see? ini juga perbedaan dulu dan skrg! dulu org2 post aja brain dump di blog mereka dimana seantero dunia bisa baca kan klo blog gabisa protect2 an hahaha tapi kalo sekarang, orang di ig kenal cuma dikit juga follow2an krn udh usia networking kaliya jd yaudah di ig banyak deh org yg gabegitu kita kenal sebenarnya sehingga malah entah ada rasa canggung dan takut menjadi diri sendiri seutuhnya wkwk. setidaknya itu yg gw rasain sih. skg ngepost di ig story sering makanan2 aja itupun insecure takut dikomen "elaah apaan dah gini doang" dalam hati org yg liat story ig.. wkwkwk. walaupun gw jarang mau diliat orang tapi begitu pula sebaliknya, gw jarang mau liat kehidupan orang sekarang2 ini terutama yg bentuknya visual kyk di ig gitu ya, karena nantinya takut menimbulkan rasa iri hati. jd gw ni bersyukur banget sama kehidupan ini dan apa apa yg ada di hidup gw. gw merasa hidup gw baik2 saja dan indah, until i compare myself to others. and when i start comparing myself to others, i can't stop.. i can't stop until i'm feeling down. trus jd insecure lagi sm diri sendiri dan merasa kurang. padahal kan semua orang juga tau ya ig itu cuma dunia maya dan postingan tu ga selalu mencerminkan dunia nyata, malah postingan itu mungkin ganyampe 40% kehidupan nyata. gw jg tau hal itu sih, tapi entah klo udah masukk ke lubang comparison, udahlah nanti2nya jd insecure. jd gw mendingan menjauh dari hal2 itu dan yaudah liat postingan di feed aja yg biasanya org post kalo penting doang. klo cuma liat yg di feed home ig entah ada gitu rasa turut bahagia nya genuine. nah untuk story paling cm liat2 story tmn dan keluarga deket aja sih karena kangen dan mau tau akbar mereka real time wkwkwk. yaa intinya everything has changed tapi 1 hal yg ga berubah yaitu gw bersyukur bgt masih ada blog ini dan gaada yg suka baca sehingga gw bisa brain dump sepuasnya. hanya sedikit insight aja nih dari gw terkait nostlagia beberapa hari ini bacain blog orang dan "wow dulu dia oversharing banget yaa" trus pas nyari2 sekarang smua di protect jd kerasa aja "omg udh beda" hahahaha. tapi makasih ya kepada orang yg masih punya blog dari lama, walaupun itu postingan lama tapi gw baca loh dan seneng baca nyaaa. terhibur banget kocak hahaha! 

anyway!! jd gw udah pake theme blogger ini dari sejak lamaa di 2011 kayaknya.. apa 2012? lupa. dan gw nyari di web itu kok kyknya udh gaada lagi template2 blog.. jadi gw skg bingung mau template yg biasa tu gimana caranya hahaha. mau template nya yg minimalis dan simple tapi juga ga mirip punnya orang-orangg. makanya gw pertahankan theme blog ini haha. jd sebenernya  gw gasuka pink.  note yaa gasukaa, bkn benci tp gasuka eh biasa aja deh. warna fav gw itu hijaaauuu tapi berhubung gw pgn theme blog yg beda sm orang jd gw pertahankan theme nya begini wkwk. semoga aja ga pada ngira "wah pink bgt nih orangnya" yaa :)

oke sekian brain dump ngabuburit hari inii :)

curhat

 Jd inget jaman dulu dikit2 curhat di blog. sekarang entah kenapa juga blog ini lagi menjadi safe space untuk curhat pdhl ini masuk online world wkwk. jd ini adalah hari ke 5 puasa ramadhan. dannn selama 5 hari ini gw masak terus lohhh. dgn bahan2 dan  bumbu2 yg ada. sejak hari pertama ada yg jualan geprek enak dia bilang dia jualan dull selama ramadhan setiap hari ready.. dan gw udh pgn bgt beli ayam geprek ini sejak hari pertama tdnya hahaha. tp gw blg lg yaudah hari kedua deh, eh ketiga, deh, eh besok deh, dan hari iniiii disaat aku mau beli malah dia gajual geprek dongg hr ini wkwkkwkw. okay masak lagi dulu deh, fine, tapi semoga besok ada yaa geprek wkwkkw. makan disaat lg pengen2nya tu enak banget gasih. #gapenting. 

oyaa ada 1 lg nih tapi ini alhamdulillah gw beli disaat lg pgn2nya dan rasanya juga tetap sama memuaskan enaak :) yaitu 2 hari lalu beli almond soya milky dates alias susu kurma rasa almond soya. kyk rame bgt ya judulnya? tapiii enaaakk<3. jd ini tuh jualan org serui gitu dia buat susu kurma home made, tapi lama2 ada banyak rasa. aku sering beli nih, tp ga sering2 bgt sih karena mahal. tp sebagai pecinta susu aku pastinya tergiur liat iklan dia wkwk. wkt itu nyoba rasa almond soya beli yg kecil eh ternyata enakkbgt, kmrn beli lg alhamdulillah rasanya msh samaa. jd awalnya beli rasa cookies, waktu itu beli yg ukuran 250ml aja krn harganya 20rb. mahal kann sbenernya tuh wkwk. pas nyoba wah enaak ada bulir2nya juga, tp emang 250ml jd kerasa nya cuma dikit. trus dia ga selalu ready gitu, suatu hari dia ngiklan lagi nah krn kebetulan lg gaada susu wkt itu jd skalian aja beli yg rasa cookies tp ukuran 1 liter dan rasa butterscotch yg uk. 250ml krn rasa baru jd penasaran. eh ternyata yg butterscotch enakkk! malah yg cookies rasanya ada perbedaan, dan walau 1 liter ternyata sama aja nih kadaluarsa nya cepet gitu hrsnya taruh freezer beku gt kaliya. masa pas bgt 3 hari eh basi pdhl msh sisa sekitar 500ml kecewa wkwkwk. tp ga sampe disitu aja, begitu dia open order lagi aku beli lagi hahaha. beli kali ini yg butterscotch tp 500ml krn aku sukaa dan yaa 1 liter kebanyakan. nah ini ada perbedaan lagi rasanya entahh wkwk jd kemanisan gitu, jd walaupun 500ml tp aku ngabisinnya lama wkwk. next dia open order lg dan eh aku pesen tp kali ini banyak rasa baru jd aku beli lumayan wkwkwk. beli yg original 1 liter, trus butterscotch 500ml, beli juga yg greentea nyobain tp lgsg 500ml krn aku suka greentea. trus yg kecil2 beli rasa creamy latte lah, caramel, dan almond soya. nah disinilah aku bertemu dgn si almond soya inii. enak manis tp ada asin2 gurihnya gitu jd gakemanisan dan apaya light aja gitu trus ada bulir2 kurmanya kerasaa wk. klo yg original 1 liter wkt itu aku berhasil menghabiskan sih tapi biasa aja ternyata ga begitu spesial rasa kurma nya kurang "terasa" walau ada bulir2 nya. jd kyk base dari susu2 yg lain aja gt makanya ini dia krg berasa. trus yg greentea ternyata kurang berhasil mnrtku biasa aja hahah pdhl wkt itu beli yg 500ml. terus kalo butterscotch pastinya suka dongg enak, tp dia memang kemanisan jd ada kan hari dimana kita merasa tenggorokan udh rada2, ya jgn dipancing dulu nih jd jgn minum ini dulu nih, jd ttp aku jeda2 gitu hahaha. klo almond soya pas sihhh ga kemanisan. yaa sejak itu aku klo beli almond soya aja 500ml jd 44rb gitu. lumayan sih tp sama aja kan dengan klo beli minuman2 di coffeeshop kan harganya 23rb rata2 utk segelas. jd klo lg pgn minum enak ya beli hahaha. lagi2 gapenting bgt ya tulisan ini huahahaua. lanjut curhat apalagi ya, ada kok masih banyak WKWKK.

oiaa jd gw habis nonton film nya Studio Ghibli "When Marnie Was Here" pernah liat di youtube yg org2 me-ranking film studio ghibli sihh dan mrk pd bilang "kok kayak lesbi ya"  gitu2 wkwk. dan memang at a glance ada tp ga menjadi inti cerita ini kok. entah aku "dapet" aja ide nya mengenai wah ternyata mrk related, pantesan sayang. tp memang ada adegan 1 lg curhat trus nangis trus dia blg i love you gitu mgkn krn itu kali ya org2 pd ngmg lesbi2, padahal kan itu lg curhat sedih dan dia merasa ga di cintai jd 1 nya lg ngmg i love you hahahaha. emg dynamic nya lucu sihhh.. mrk family related gitulho jadi diakhir gw nangisss masa hahaha. filmnya sediiiih ih ternyata. pdhl mau notnon kartun utk seneng2 eh gataunya sedih wkwk. nah ini kan nonton nya di netflix, ada lg nih berbagai hal yg gw tonton series dan film. klo film di april awal kemarin ada 2 film yg kusuka diriliss yaitu Flipped dan What A Girl Wants. film Flipped sih yg aku lebih sukaa. krn filmnya warm banget, lucuuu gitu dan nyaman. Klo film What A Girl Wants sebenernya rada2 cringey gitu (bukan romantis tp  cringey lain ya) krn dia memalukan gituu tingkahnya hahaha. tapi kok di bbrp adegan menuju terakhir gw nangiiiisss hahahahha. sampe sedih bgt gitu lagi. jd kmrn ntn nya pake hati banget kaliya krn kan dia udh lama gaketemu ayahnya dan begitu ketemu ternyata dunia mrk ga cocok jd kan sedih bangett, trus pas ternyata ayahnya lebih milih dia drpd dunianya aaa itu unyu bangettt nangisss terharu banjir wkwkkw. apalagi ternyata setelah 17 tahun papa mama nya ternyata msh saling cinta agghh wkwkw. trus  ada lg yg gw tonton film cheesy yaitu twilight breaking dawn part 2 WKWK. eh tp seru yaa adegan volturi dan carlisle cs berantem, apalagi liat jane nya mati satisfying bgt rasanya ga sih hahaha. selain itu ada juga series pastinya ya di netflix yg gw tonton. gw pernah cerita ga sih di blog ini klo gw tuh susah nonton series. susahh. apalagi series yang ternyata udh ber season-season. mari kita rewind.

- waktu smp ada ni series namanya pretty little liars, seru kan tuh kyknya gw ntn sm syahda tapi ya gasemua juga ga sampe habis, toh kita jg masih kecil dan series anak gede gt bkn ranah kita. tp kita ga selesain dan gw gapernah lanjutin samsek. bener kan? crtnya lama2 terlalu complicated wkwk. 

- waktu awal2 kuliah adek gw memperkenalkan The 100, awalnya seru sampe season 1 gw ntn, tp kyknya season 2 gw selesai deh, karena semua menjadi too complicated dan exhausting nonton nya jd udahlah gausah lanjutin dan emg gw bisa gt ga lanjutin series ga yg attached. alias saking plot nya makin aneh2 jd nya ga attached lg gapenasaran lg pergi jauh lo sana gt wkwk.

- glee.  lagi2 adek yg ngenalin ini series. awalnya seru, gw kyknya nonton sampe season 2 awal2(?) tapiii lama2 gakuat bgt terlalu banyak backstabbing dan plot twist moment dan apaya complicated bangettt haha. belum lagi gw kecewa sih kenapa quinn gak sama sam pdhl udh cocokbgt dan knp quinn nya selingkuh eh balik lg sm finn dan gataunya finn nya msh blm move on dr rachel. sakit hati bgt i love quinn dan jd sebel knp kok dibikin gini fate nya si quinn mana kan dia jg ketabrak gt kan entah di season brp kecelakaan wkwk jd males okay gw dr awal udh gasuka rrachel banget jd lah merasa ga adil knp favor rachel bgt di series ini hahha. eh gataunya bnr kan in real life katanya on glee set, rachel was bitchy to minor actress/actresses (jd lupa nama aslinya-_-) yaudah deh stop lg ga langgeng dgn series ini wkwk

- gossip girl. lagi2 pas kuliah ni, mau bgt nonton series drama yg iconiccc dan terkenal dimana2. nonton lah gw. eh 1 season aja ga selesai dongg wkwk. ini parah sih, org2 mah msh  kuat 1 season kok gw udh gakuat.. as much as i loveee blair waldorf, i still decides to stop. dan bener kan emang season 2-4 katanya no no banget. jd gw nonton annalisis orang lah di youtube, mgkn tv producer sering kali gitu. mrk menulis cerita nih dan sukses! begitu mau season 2 mrk liat2 review orang dan akhirnya misal karakter blair waldorf yg penonton senangi karena dia berkarisma, dia pintar dan selalu menang, rude but true, dia queen banget tapi dia juga punya sisi sedih dan insecurity. begitu di season 2-4 dia bitchy doang utama nya, padahal kan namanya manusia ya jd karakternya malah jd gimana ya... haha gitudeh. intinya writers/producers yg sukses di season 1 sering kali membuat kesalahan dimana mrk jd panjang2in cerita lah, dgn tambahan plot2 ga makes sense, trus jeleknya mrk melakukan pembunuhan karakteristik dari karakter(?) jd a misal punya karakter b,c,d,e, malah diambil karakter b doang yg disukai orang2/penonton. nooo jgn gitu hrsnya wkwk #sotoy

- grey's anatomy. nah ini baru2 ini aja nih series aku tonton. ya baru di 2021 ini dan i can't stop watchingggg hehehe. tapi udah stop! wkwk. season 3 apa ya ini blm sampe habis sih tp kyknya udh season 3 haha. seru banget dia pada awalnya, rumit2 kedokteran dan pengoperasian, trus ngomong2 ttg kasus nya, seru aja gituu. juga menunjukkan permasalahan2 yg di alami sama interns2 yaitu bukan masalah keuangan, namun lebih kompleks dari itu dan menyakitkan serta mrk punya trauma  nya masing2 haha. seiring berjalannya waktu aku jd sukaa sm karakter christina, bailey, addison, dan meredith. tapi entah lama2 semakin complicated, makin banyak karakter2 baru bermunculan dan karakter yg lama jd  ilang satu per satu. trus george yg baik aja kok ya dia gitu aku emosi wkwk. intinya emg filmnya ada membuat kita sakit hati tapi juga sama2 overcome those heartbreak aja gitu tp lama2 too many heartbreaks i can't even continue wkwkwk. jd udah lah gw memutuskan utk stop aja drpd nanti tambah baper sm series ini. and there she goes, bye bye grey's mgkn kl aku kuat lg nanti mau ntn krn aku bahkan belum ketemu karakter Lexie yg mana dia kyknya seru relationshipnya dgn meredith. tapi ntar2 aja dah

- how to get away with murder. inii baru2 ini aja siiih hahahaha. baru aja notnon tp lgsg mau quit ya wkwk. jd awal nonton krn br tau yg main Viola davis!!! hehe suka bgt dia. dan ttg attorney2 gt pula kan seru ya kasus2 crime2 wkwk. tapiii jeng jeng lama2 kesel juga sama main case nya jalannya terlalu lambat dan ep brp gitu si wes berusaha melindugi rebecca, terlalu melindungi sampe mengcover atas pembunuhan(?) gimana ya emosi aja pdhl kan lu gakenal rebecca ngapain lu bela bgt dia nya sampe segitunya sampe dia baik jd kok jahat wkwk. aku gakuat dan ga seneng dgn plot ini jd kmrn habisin 1 episode trus udahlah bye byee abis ini wkwkkw.

sekarang sisanya gw lg noton series nya Sherlock yg dimainkan oleh Dr. Strange wkwk lupa kan nama asli nya hahaha. take it slow aja sih sejauh ini nonton nya krn 1 ep lamaa gitu jd yaudah slow aja but for now i love itt haha suka bgt khas sherlock memperhatikan sampe detail trus seneng dgrnya org accent british ngmg cepet2 hahaaaa sukabangett. eh ngmg2 sherlock, jd inget di foxcrime kan sering yaa banyak series2 nah gw cocok nih nonton series2 yg di tv karena ga sampe attached krn episode baru kemungkinan seminggu sekali atau seminggu 2 kali dan itu jg kadang ga saling menyambung yakan haha. tp gw sukaaa bgt notnon Castle, The Closer, Cold Case, The Mentalist, dan Law and Order (pastinyaaa kesukaan smua orang) baik yg criminal intent maupun yg SVU. sempet jg nonton medical drama nih lagi2 klo di tv tu ada aja yg cocok krn gag sampe attached yaitu New Amsterdam, The Resident, Grey's Anatomy (yg udh season2 baru gt yg di tv wkwk). Itu aja deng kyknya, ga melulu medical drama ya, kan new ams sama the resident lebih ke pengelolaan rumah sakit yakan dan ada nurse juga. 

Udah ah mau bikin nasi dulu sama masak, krn hr ini baru saja gw mendapatkan my monthly bleeding jd lah mau makan dulu krn drtd br minum aja.. daaaaah~

Apakabar?

 Hello! It's 5.45 pm hereee in Serui. Udah mau waktu berbuka puasa, yaa iseng2 aku sambil ngabuburit di blog ini lahyaa. jd aku br nyadar, kok dulu sering curhat alay gitu skg kok jarang ya? pdhl kan yaudahlah gpp namanya jg blog sendiri, gaada yg baca pula. drpd berisik di twitter? wkwkkww. bukannya jrg curhat jg sih, tapii jrg curhat random, belakangan kyknya postnya terstruktur satu tema bangett wkwk.

Jd ceritanyaaa, ini adalah hari kedua Ramadhan. aku sejauh ini senang dengan makanan sahur dan berbuka ku yg mana masakan sendiri. ceritanya blm lama hbs beli nugget yg isinya banyak, eh seminggu kemudian ada yg jual sosis hotel.. krn gakuat dan tergiur, toh mau puasa juga, jd aku beli deh sosis hotel nyaa 150rb 1kg wkwk. pdhl nugget msh ada. awalnya ngerasa aduh rugi, tp lama-lamaa yaa skrg2 ini di bulan puasa...senenggg rasanyaa. makan masakan sendiri tapi enak (krn bahan nya jg udh enak haha!) nah utk sahur td aku udh masak sosis+buncis di bumbu lada hitam, tdk lupa pake poached egg setengah mateng yg cesss enak. klo berbuka ini, aku sayur kol dan kentang rebus, pake 2 nugget, dan siram saus kewpie! nyaaam, enak sih kayaknya wkwkwkw. terus yg random dihari ini adalah... jd ibu kos baikbgttt ngasih beras 10kg (bkn beras bulog!) dan pas bgt aku sm dwi lg makanin beras bulog trs krn mls beliii :"), trus jg  ada gula 1kg dan sirup marjan 1 botol! sm minyaaak oiaa!! baikbgt kan bu kosss. nah krn gula kami ada banyak bgtt, aku iseng lah bikin karamel... berhasil! menghabiskan setengah kg gula krg lebih. ehhh tp pas udh mateng dan ditaruh di tempat, kan aku tinggal utk sholat ashar, krn buatnya td sblm ashar.. ehh pas balik lg dia udh mengeras dong wkwk dodolbgt gaksih gwwww. pdhl kebetulan udh beli susu 1lt jugaa (huu i cant live without milk) mau buat cold caramel milk :) begitu dia mengeras td yaudah coba pelan2, dan akhirnya keambil lah msh keras gt kerasss bgt gbs pake pisau (atau pisau nya emg tumpul?) nah udah akhirnya siram dgn air panas, taruh di gelas. lama2 it's working! awalnya air td jd kyk warna teh, eh lama2 makin coklat dan caramelnya cair semuaa. jd sudah deh saya sudah taruh setengah gelas air caramel td  serta tuang susu di gelas yg laiinn. Krn lg puasa ofkors gbs nyobain, gatau dia bkl kemanisan apa nggaaa wkwk mari kita coba nanti yaa. ahh skrg jam 5.53 dan udahlah ya segitu aja ke-random-an saya. mau wudhu dan menanti berbukaaa. byeee fellas!!!

Youtube channel worth some shout out!!

hello!! oh i'm such a consumer now again here i am i wanted to reccomend you channels I've been loving. For the aesthetics, for making me feel good, especially for bringing good content in the internet world. Ever since I'm here, far away from home, my Youtube game has been different! I used to only watch music videos, news, knowledge to discuss with either my siblings or my parents, and just a little bit of entertainment or et cetera.  Nowwwww, i've even been watching and loving VLOGS too! wkwkk. So here it is, Youtube channel worth more subscriber that i've been loving! Thankful for them for brightening my daayy lol hahah.

 

1. Jnaydaily!

 She posted about her daily life in LA. Her new house is so dreamyy. I also love her friendship with the roomate, love how she takes footage, loveeee all the food she makes, her home decor is also really fun and satisfying! I happen to always clicked the like button when she's making food hahaha. Her vlogs are simple and real (not trying too hard), and in her advice video, she is very encouraging. When talking to us her viewers, i love how she lights up and so happy it radiates to me hahaha. :)

2.Michelle Choi

She's based in New York, and has this series called living alone diaries which I've been loving! Her videos just feel so comforting. It's real, not trying to have a fake good time lol. I get so lonely sometimes in heree, so watching her being alone, just doing house chores, cooking, eating, have some girl-talk, and clean up her house, idk it soothes me. i love simple comforting videos like hers :)

 

3. Wear I Live

She also live in New York, I think I've talked about her before but oh boy I really love her channel! She is soooo aesthetic lol hahahah! She has her own aesthetic and it's so.....heartwarming. Unlike jnay and michelle, I feel like Jenny did plan her videos. It's not always a regular tittle, It could be different from a month to the other. I also love how she updates often. She is also this homie-girl, just like me lol. She had more friends than me hahaha, but I just love how she's comfort in being alone and making this great content. She also keeping it real, there are some videos about like "getting out of a rut" which happen to also be happening to me at that time as well lol. Also she admits she's a sensitive person, and idk she keeps it real we see her through more... loveee her.

4. Moya Mawhinney

She actually still a college student, based in Dublin, Ireland!! oh GOSHHH Ireland is so beautiful!! I love seeing Dublin through her videos. Her videos is also had her own aesthetic it fits my likingl! I'm sure it fits into many other people's liking as well. She's currently in her final year doing dissertation, goes to the library often, wrinting her draft haha just reminding me of my routine and those good times in my 4th year in college when i also in that position of writing my thesis. It's fun to watch her videoss:)

5. Modern Gurlz

This channel  is about...... girls! hahah. She posted about movie recs, movie review, movie analysis, analysis about minor things in movies, and fashion analysis! Idk i just lovee her content. She made some masterpiece like those 3 videos that i put up!! It's a MASTERPIECE!! Things that u think are simple and just for entertainment, she analyse deep down  through them. I think she got her point tho, in my opinion those things are also not simple! Or if it was simple, best question still comes from such simple things, right? Go check her channel, girls u wouldn't regret it :) <3

6. KarenBritChick

Based in NYC, she mainly posts about fashion. What made her famous was this series she made called "What Everyone Is Wearing in New York" i loveeeeeeee theem! always liked her videos on that series. It isn't only about fashion, watching them makes me wanted to go to New York lol! :) I also love her home reno videos, so inspiring that she put up so much thoughts into every corner of her house. Not everything is custom made! I love how she thrift things, mix and match, even got her husband to build some things haha. love!

7. Rowena Tsai

Videos about self-improvement, but level up! She made this videos about productivity, mindfulness, mental health, but not just an ordinary kind of videos! She plans it out, helps us to actually practice them, with structured planning to improve ourselves! Her videos about insecurities and being alone but not lonely also reaaalllyyyy comforting<3 Check out her videos for some comforting but nourishinng content! She isn't that pushy productivity person that forces you to be productive no, she helped you like an older sister :)<3

8. Sanne Vloet

This girl right heree, I actually been loving her videos so much since back in 2019, but in 2020 she kinda take some time off which makes me sad but was a good thing to do for herself. I can feel it tho, in 2020 I feel like her vibes in videos aren't the same. Now she's back!! and she got that vibess that i love haha. Her videos is mostly about daily life but elevated. She is a model actually, but i think she's in the middle of following her passion which is cooking. She posted about daily life, cooking, what she eats, mindfullness and also workouts haha. Haad so much happening, she even had her skincare line and started Matcha business since she really love matcha. ambitious and inspiring but the vibes are comforting somehow. Also, love her accent! Dutchy english! haha :)

9. Psych2go

Channel about psychology informations, not only info but also for improvement and identification in our life. All about psychology but presented with calms voice over and cuteee illustrations! :)

10.Friendly Space Ninja

New channel actually, I also had just discovered this channel maybe last week. This channel is about deep-length movie-analysis! He's really good with his explanation one by one, and i notice he's analyze in deep-length which was cool and entertaining!

 

bonus!
11. Bite-Sized in Harper's Bazaar channel!

Idk why in early 2021 since new year, I loveeee watching this kind of videos. It's series where actresses or musician or public figure talks or narrate to us about what they eat in a day, but with this awesome edit from Harper's Bazaar where they put like illustration of what the public figure is describing or narrating to us. It's soo good, I really wanted to appreciate the editor!! So cool!<3

I actually had more channels to reccomend but for now I think that's it? I wanted to feel this loveee as much as i love this 11 channels before i would post them on my blog(?) haha<3 If they've reassure me on their next posts... maybe I'll put in another posts! ;D If u made it this far, ur so cool!! I love u!!! Thank you for reading!

Current Fav Podcasts

Hello! assalamualaikum wr wb. Today i want to share my current favorite podcast! I actually wrote this to doccument my current fav. I realize i've been so noisy on twitter, so even normally i would post these on twitter but for now i think it's wise to just share them here :). 

Okayyyyy so here it is my kind of podcast. The podcast i listen to. I actually have some specific qualification for a  podcast to become my favorite, lol. Maybe many people out there are like me too :) 

1. The intro shouldn't be too long.

2. The music or background music shouldn't interrupt the talking.

3. If it's about some motivational podcast, it shouldn't make me feel like i just had a burden in my life. it should calm and ease me, it should lighten how i see life, not the opposite.

4. It shouldn't be too noisy. It shouldn't hurts our ears while listening.

okay those are the specific qualification of a good podcast in my opinion! XD I have been listening to podcast mostly while i excercise (walk or run), and while i work. When i go on a run, i tend to need some background music. Because if not, i will only focus on how many laps i've passed, and how tireeddd i am hahaha. Also at work, sometimes i like to work without any backsound. sometimes i like to work with music. But! everytime i listen to music while working, i tend to sing and fantasizing my kind of videoclip for this song. The music distracts me hahaha. Then i listened to podcasts. and i love it! here are some of my fav podcast:

 

1. The Daily Shine Podcast

Okaay so this podcast is mainly about meditation 0:). At first, i kinda laugh about how the voice is almost like the girl in google translate. But then when the backsound comes while she talks, it calmms me, it soothes me. This podcast is also not only come in meditation form, it also comes with reflect/journaling kind of type (which i really love!). How she talks, and the point she made in this podcast is so calming it makes me appreciate myself more. This is the kind of self-love podcast you're searching for! So effective! It makes me look more inward, and being calm in reacting to outward. The outro "You Got This!" at the end alwaaayss been my favorite and makes me feel boosted. haha. Their journaling prompts are simple but always something i never heard/read on the internet before! It challenges me to look more inward and focused on myself, my perspective of life and at the end of the podcast i will always learn something new about myself. I even listen to this podcast while at work, when i'm working on something that needs to be done quickly, i'm on the verge of freaking out while doing this tasks, but with this lovely podcast as my backsound, i can concentrate more and be more calm and focused! wow, right? :) They even asks us to follow them as they say things to calm ourselves, even to hug yourself!<3 I feel like when i am freaking out, there's this imaginary friend that calm me told me to breath, and look the other way, and told you it's gonna be okay,even hug you. that imaginary person is actually ourselves. What a level up of a selflove right<3. I actually have listened to all of their episodes! But they update daily,  every day from Monday to Friday, so yeay! grateful for this podcast:) loveee :)

 2. Vitamin Glow Podcast with Haley and Katie

This one podcast is like a girl-talk typa podcast! I looooveee this one, i even have been listening to ALL of their episodes. All their episodes are no longer than 30minutes! I loveee it! They stay inside the topic, and how they share their story is like i'm listening to an older sister:"). I am the oldest daughter in the family. so i have only to younger sisters, but no older sister. Listening to them makes me happy because, well, they're like this older sister figure to me. We actually only separated by one or two years old. So how they see life is not really different from me. They're interesting, not too loud, not that super-social-people, and that's why i like them. Remember i don't like loudy podcast right? haha. Their length in one episode, which rangeg between 10-20 minutes is also perfect! In 20minutes, i always have been run 5 laps. so 5 laps of running that i don't feel. Love listening to them while i run. Makes me not focused in my tiredness, but also hear some good perspective, good advice, and interesting stories. But they are on a break now. hopefully they will update again soon! pleaseeee:"(

 3. The Savvy Psychologist's Quick and Dirty Tips For Better Mental Health

 One day i was deciding what to listen as i am about to go grocery shopping. What to listen while driving to the market, and while i'd be picking up things on my lists. Then i open this podcast, search for an episode with good topic and ooooh it was fun! It was very knowleadgeable, informative, but the way she talks about this serious matter is kinda funny, and not intimidating. It also comes with this tips that can be approached in real life:) it's fun to take notes while listen to her because it's really good. The topic is also fun! It's things that are really happening in t he daily life. from that one about sleep, to the recent one about how to not lose a friendship  over politic talks! haha. she's talking about basic things like nightmare, sleeping, but also something that took my heart because i need this advice. example is this one episode tittled "how to let go of resentment" that i heard a while ago. Uuuuuhh. Also this one  episode which i heard recently while at work,really hit me. i even paused and take notes because wow i am so amazed:") look! it's tittled "Resilience: Mastering The Art of Bouncing Back" sounds really ambitious right? but no! it's not intimidating listening to this. In fact it brings this idea, and courage to my perspective.

4. Perfectly Imperfect Podcast with Christine and Regina

Okay we're arriving at our last stop for now. The 4th on my list of current fav podcasts. So this is the newest podcasts that i have just found. But not to them they've been doing podcast since 2019! or less i think,i forgot. there are many MANY episodes with really cool tittle. When i heard them for the first time, they're still on going but now they're on a break :( This one podcast is also about girl-talk, advice, like from an older sister figure but more detailed and complex and dig deep. Their episode range 45min to an hour, which sometimes I wouldn't like. But this podcast, i could listen to them until the very end! The first episode that caught my eye to click it was "The things that we're happy didn't work out" maybe not exactly like that i forgot but it's about things that didn't work out in their past that eventually as time goes by they realize it's actually for the best. That episode reallyyyy opened up my perspective because they're Asian-American, this Christine and Regina, they actually point out things that well, relevant in Indonesia too. maybe not exactly but almost. I'm amused by their stories, they have been through really a lot, a lot that it's really like listening to an older sister experience. They also have interesting episode with featurete people like "what men really thinks and what they don't tell you" it's actually really interesting. It's interesting but i don't know why my fav episodes are when it's just 2 of them sharing and talking. Okay like this one episode that I've also been listening while at work, a week ago,tittled "Do you like me? Seeking External Validation" it is almost an hour but i'm amused and happy and thought wow, right! From how simple things like favorite colour, that we tend to say something cool rather than our really favorite colour when we were little, to things major like "do you still love me mom even if I don't want to be a doctor?" hahaha! Not only they're talking about their experience, girl-talk, but also they come up with a summary and always lesson  to be learned, and like it is okay to feel that way and let us slowly learning to overcome it.

 Yeay! That's it! My current favorite podcasts for now. I know I'm just a nobody but I just want to appreciate this podcasts because they're too good!! Spotify doesn't really have a comment section so I don't know where should i say this but now it's out in the Internet and I hope they know how good their podcasts is! Really really inspiring and comforting. Really really good company. :)